The Curse

Hip Hip Hooray! The curse is finally here. Happy get your period day to all! I think I speak for a lot of women when I say that I never thought those words would come out of my mouth. Who would have thought I (we) would be so excited about something so yucky? Jason was so funny when he caught me dancing around in the teensy bathroom (We do have the worlds smallest bathroom, check the Guinness book if you don't believe me) , he yelled "I think I smell a blog coming on!" Funny he should mention it, because I was having such a bad day yesterday that I already had written a mental entry. Now all of that seems a little sweeter to write about.
What does this mean for the Beales? Well, it means that now we count down until day 21 when I have a blood test to determine my hormone levels and check egg production. The first pit stop along the way is a home ovulation kit. The hope is that it will detect a positive hormone signaling ovulation around day 10-14. I am really trying not to get ahead of myself and just focus on getting a positive test result. I can't bring myself to research any more about infertility because I don't have any concrete facts yet. My mind wanders into some really dark places when I cruise the Internet. I have decided that I need to be ignorant. Hold it. Another statement I never thought would come out of my mouth. Logically I know I need to be informed, but emotionally I need to take whatever happens in stride. Worrying about what may or may not happen is slowly driving me crazy. Like my girls told me last night, I need to release control of this beast and realize that He has a plan for us. Easier said then done, but I will do my best. In this moment, I just feel a great relief because we are finally on the road to getting some answers.
You might be wondering why I had such a crappy day yesterday. In retrospect, I guess I could blame PMS! But seriously, some of the peeps I work with are off their rockers. Sparing you all the long boring details, my company has hired a new president. Hopefully he starts June 1st as we have been without one since late November. This change has made a lot of people nervous and jumpy. Jumpy translates to edgy, edgy goes to mean, and then mean turns into yelling at nice people. You follow? Yesterday not just one but two of these nervous Nellies screamed at me. Those of you who know me, will tell you that I am not good with confrontation, so this made for a very unpleasant work day. But I am over it. Today I sent one person an email on the subject and the other I plan to ignore until I feel like he has suffered enough. Either way, I am not going to let it get me down. It just saddens me to see how badly we treat each other in the work place since I see more of them then my own family. If I believed in karma, let's just say that these folks are coming back as cockroaches....big fat squishy ones.